Sex. {Not kidding, not at all}

I thought it might be time for another 'deep' ranty blog. And since everyone I know seems to be thinking about this nowadays, I might as well explain my stand on it. Sooo, get a snack and a beverage, tell your friends to leave you alone.. I am going to talk about sex. :P

OKAY. So. It pisses me off that a lot of young young girls are having sex at like twelve fucking years old. I mean, my sister is only 13, if I found out she was having sex, I would go OFF. Sex nowadays seems to mean so little for everyone, like sex is just something to do when you're bored. It's like you're sitting at home one night really bored so instead of doing something productive you call up some guy you know (or girl) and say "Hey I'm bored, wanna have sex?" And that is perfectly natural. I find that retarded. Especially since there are so many gross things going around involved with sex, like, hm, STDS. And pregnancy. And then there's the decision if you're too young whether or not to keep the baby. IN my opinion, if you're not going to keep the baby, just put it up for adoption. I don't believe in abortion, only for certain circumstances. Like, rape victims and twelve year olds who are poor and whose family will send them into the streets. If you're too young to make a decision about keeping a baby, you're too young to have sex. For me, 16 is the age where sex becomes talkable with partners. Sometimes even later...

Anyway. Sex for me (and maybe I've just been too shy and reserved or been brought up too strictly but I digress...) is like the BIGGEST thing in a relationship.. Besides like, marriage or whatever. For me sex is what happens when you know you are in love, when you trust your partner completely, when you know you will be together forever (or reallllllly long time, whatever) and when you can openly have conversations about those things without feeling awkward or anything. AND even then, that's only if you FEEL ready. And even then, it is kind of scary. I mean, sex is the easy part. It's the physical thing. Even if it's your first time, sex is truly, just sex. The hard part about it is giving yourself so completely to someone else, giving your heart to them, showing how much you love them, giving them the biggest opening to hurt you. That is the scary part.

I mean, you hear it everywhere, sex is appealing, it sells, blah blah blah. It has to be the easy part if everyone is able to talk about it so openly, show it all through the media, and make jokes about it. If people can laugh so much at sex, it is obviously no big deal.

But to give yourself to someone else, that is a dfferent story. Let's put it like this: you are asked to bottle up your entire soul and your feelings for the person and just hand it over. Simple. Easy-peasy. Right?

Wrong. And even if they are willing to give you them, you're still losing a part of you...

Maybe I am too much of a good girl to really get it, or been brought up strictly so now all I think about is how "bad" sex is but I don't know... I just don't see it the same as everyone else. Or maybe more people see it the same way but just don't show it, or just follow the crowd. Either way, this is starting to REALLLY get on my nerves. Not to mention "music" nowadays is FULL of sex and money and drugs and other shit. It's unnerving.

OKAY. I think I am done with my long rant about sex. . . .

Until next time (not ranting about sex next time, just next blog time..)

Just Me.